So my mom called me fat today. I shouldn’t be so surprised, considering every one of my family members have been calling me fat and telling me that I’ve recently put on more weight these past few weeks. It’s true. They’re not lying. Sigh. I got really fat and I don’t know what to do.
So I found out one upside of being an unemployed 22-year-old these days – I get to finish this amazing childhood game of mine in 4 days – NO LESS. My brother installed it for me on Sunday and I only started playing in the night. Right now, it’s 11PM GMT+8 on a Thursday night and I have officially (and emotionally) said goodbye to this game. I completed it. It is a bittersweet feeling. I am both happy and sad about this ending. Sigh. Now, what?
P.S. Dear Soulmate, I’m ready. Please whisk my soul away and let us be as one. I don’t know how long I can live, to continue pretending that everything is okay, with this void inside of me. I swear, sometimes it’s like the emptiness inside is so overwhelming, I almost feel like I’m being devoured inside out.